Wednesday, 22 August 2012

archive +9.6

 He was talking to someone on the phone about supplying monitors for the Brussels office

He was also drinking a beer and said he hadn’t slept for 32 hours

Heart broken how?

If you don’t know what to believe then there is no point in worrying.  I still think you’re great

I’m riddled with fear and self loathing

Are you doing the nasty?

He couldn’t get away from me faster.  I feel horrible

God I hate this feeling, depressed and rejected by the world.  Hate boys, hate me

I’m on curfew 7 to 7

He just threw up so the office smells of acid pizza.  

I feel like a hot oven

Just persist.

He does fancy you

Sunday, 29 July 2012

archive +9.5

 Don’t laugh

Bit much?  I think so

My dad sent me a text

We adore the branding iron

I can hear the bubbles against the inside of my coke can

Unbelievable

Someone told me to stop tapping the buttons so I couldn’t text you back

I'm in Equador feeling most popular

Those pictures are the best I’ve ever seen.  Thank you

Thought that would be the best course of action

I have the softest butteriest teeth

Wednesday, 20 June 2012

archive +9.4

 Your smile

I just got back on the wagon.  Don’t expect me ever to be the same.

I was in the crappy end of Holloway road being slut

If I could tell you everything at the push of a button I would

Either Italy or Balham

What is this constant stream of self flagellation? Either come or don’t.  Do what you actually want to do

Did you go to finishing school?

When I was 14 I wore a basin haircut, a hand me down woolly jumper, hi tec trainers and drove a tractor.  I didn’t know what sex was

Of course I want you there.  Your ticket is on the door

Carnival Sunday, time to bring it

The florist dropped them by the bin

I'm back.  Warn the boys

It was a half joke

Wednesday, 30 May 2012

archive +9.3

Stop wasting my time

That just launched an enormous debate at the lunchtable

We’re in Monaco, just bitcing.   

Nothing more nothing less

I want to be a sinner

I wasn’t annoyed, I was flirting with you.

I feel like your pathetic girlfriend

We’re now both pretty hurt

The hair is all gone

I forget to say, I'm a vegan

Yo don’t know what selling out is because you're selling out itself

Was it a p ART y?

And in one fell swoop, I'm reminded  why I haven’t spoken to you in ages

Sunday, 29 April 2012

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Has anyone been in your house?  There are white concrete footprints from the bathroom to your room.

Cement I think. Footprints

Or maybe she is a coke dealer. Gets it shipped in massive bags then steps on it to compress it into tiny packs she can hide. Much more likely.

You used to make me vomit

I swallowed it If I say yes will you let me sleep now?

I can only be friends with you if you stop assuming I think you’re pretentious and try to relax. That’s the only way we can get on. Big ask I know but it’s a deal breaker

I just feel washed up fucked up and lonely and another party isn’t going to solve it

Please don’t tell anyone about the tattoo.

You must understand, I have a reputation to protect.

I thought you had got over that phase.

Monday, 9 April 2012

archive +9.1

I'm at your house now. your brother thinks I'm insane

You want to fuck me?

Just famous people

I just chatted shit. I think they bought it

She is confused

I think your dad thought I was a fan

My body is twisting

I swear on my life

I wanted to make cucumber sandwiches. Have you got any other cute ideas?

We have coconut macaroons for you

Can you answer your fucking phone please

We wont make it west

Monday, 6 February 2012

archive +9.0

I've got nothing to say to you

Fat legs

They're singing in the fucking kitchen

Your coke's getting warm

Personally I think he was obsessed with his profile, but this was generally scoffed at in class

Don’t know. Sick like a dog

She has dyed her hair brown

I dreamt about your hair last night

This is by far my favourite Oxford story.

Are you still a smoker?

Don’t forget descriptive

There is no denying, he's handsome

Try my best to smooth away your frown

Very niche interest

We have amazing new railings

Monday, 16 January 2012

archive +8.9

If we’re going to be friends you're going to have to stop apologising

I'm sorry for drinking, it was only two glasses. I just couldn’t do it, I'm a disgrace

Doesn’t she get agressive?

How many free texts do you get a month?

I want to give you speech therapy

A good texting does take it out of you, doesn’t it?

It is sad but we’ll always be friends and that’s the heaven of it

Sardines under stairs

The fanciest, but maybe not the fleshiest

I've spent an uncommon amount of my life in airports, you’re right

Fine. I will just stay in and read then

I thought that might be your answer

Thursday, 12 January 2012

archive +8.8

One of the twins looks fat

And in one fell swoop, I'm reminded why I haven’t spoken to you in ages

Can you by me harry potter, in English. Your brother is refusing

She seems to think I'm a terror, still bullying you. Am I?

I'm sorry I got angry the other night. That day was terrible for me, one of the worst

No, I'm sorry, no excuses. Silly

Sounds pretty wild

He has found me factor 100 sun cream for the old and ill. I will be fine

I can just imagine your scruffy head in the room next door. I wish you were here

Like really fucking major

Those photos have had me laughing all day

Is he taking toy soldiers with him too?

Well I'm back at work at Roadchef so what do you think?

Monday, 12 December 2011

archive +8.7

Please tell me you haven’t gone for round face straight nose again

In English

Should I put toothpaste on my burn?

I thought you would tell me off for sending it to my mum

I guess so babe, I guess so

Going to album launch then to you

Stop chopping those fucking tomatoes

Morally?

Your man is so here and I think I just insulted him by saying he sounded west London. Either way we are conspiring to capture you

So very grateful for saving me last night

Please can you not tell anyone

Send me a picture of a baboon

A little more crude than I intended

You’ve never submitted. It's an ongoing battle. You're extremely beautiful and incredibly sexy. You can be rude though

Sunday, 13 November 2011

archive +8.6

Just climbed to the top

He is thinking the same

Tough crowd

I have seen a friend go mad though and it was horrible

A raw pigs brain.

Then fuck you

Pudding

For your information, your parents have already accepted the invitation so it's not really my problem.

He has a very special nose

My boss looks like our college gardener - the guy who does the lawns

I just got paid and it feels good, but it makes me realise I want to be stinking fucking rich.

I’m starting to think I won't see you again.

It’s a depressing place in many ways, full of people with no way out

Thursday, 27 October 2011

archive +8.5

Countryside weirdness; the twilight zone

Do you enjoy confusing me, seriously?

Just be cautious and remember if your throat swells up call 999

Firstly, don’t ‘babe, what?’ me. Secondly, hello and thirdly, I heard there was big party at yours tonight

Why not for too long?

Why would we fight?

Am in London, but tell Oxford I love her, tell Oxford that I need her, tell Oxford not to cry, my love for her will never die

I think a very boring Greek goddess

Blonde curls and you would have to come and collect it from me

I doubt I could have given you any list of my friends that wouldn’t have intimidated you

I’m lonely and bored

I’m on an island in Kent wanting bacon

Sounds depraved

Tuesday, 27 September 2011

archive +8.4

Does your dad know a lot about bananas?

Shut up and sing

I hate smoke and I hate watching you smoke

How are you feeling about the situation today?

God I would love a dinner party with them

That’s a top five for you

I’m chain smoking

I’m in a tent

More like, wet wet wet

Sorry, phone in shoe. You should know that

Ok, titles rolling

Darling, what’s his surname?

I seem to remember I was the one who invited you out this evening

Thursday, 25 August 2011

archive +8.3

I have had the best idea

You sent me quite a strange message the other day

His dad picked us up. Real boy racer

Very similar, perhaps more chatty and approachable. He said he didn’t want a scoda in his drive

One of a kind

Ive just done it for you

I might go as far as delete the ones you don’t like then

I'm always shocked by your choices

Number 5 aint his best

Don’t talk rubbish

Kfc market research

Should we book in a session?

Am I being too forward? Tell me if I am.

It was funny, but I've finished my break so you're going to have to wait a bit longer for replies

Thursday, 30 June 2011

archive +8.2

I like that

I feel better. More alive.

I was just thinking

It's morning so best end our correspondence or something awful might happen

He is Irish and do you know how old he is?

27, what happened last night? Everyone went mad. She pissed herself when I told her. Prepare yourself

Literally the funniest thing ever. I can’t stop laughing.

Look at his myspace

You and your sibling, I so love you both, saying thank you. What shall we do tonight? Toga party at yours? Yes, I did send this to you both

Well said, it was great

I’m still hurting. I may have even died a little bit yesterday

We couldn’t get her in despite screaming at the doorman that she was born in 1982. So we left with our new friend, a Canadian man. I am mortified

She is going to new era to tease

Go yourself then. I’m sure that won't be awkward

I popped pills in Camden. Not that jealous

I’m sorry I was a total mess last night, so not cool

I don’t remember anything. Seriously, nothing. Sorry

And are we ashamed of ourselves? Well I am. You know I almost lost my job this morning

I’m giving up drinking for a while

It must be somewhere along the cycle

I give myself 5/10. I’m in the country on a farm. Working

I can’t tell yet. I will suss it out

I’m sorry I lost my mind

You’re so confused

Tuesday, 31 May 2011

archive +8.1

would love a friendly text to break up a boring day

Thoughtful mouse, I suppose that isn’t bad. BBC world always makes me more awake, it’s the colours

Dream on

When do you get back from ‘away’

We played loads of juju music. My dance partners were strictly over the age of consent. I’m going to try and dance with a pregnant woman next time

I cooked my arm last night. Boils, blisters and all. I’ve been such a foreigner to London this Easter.

It wasn’t

Promise it wasn’t

I’m your flexible friend

Sounds like a catch 22 to me. Masturbation or football usually works for me. You’re going to have to think of your own though

Friday, 22 April 2011

archive +8.0

I have had four replacement teeth from punches

Well it’s interesting to find out what you really think of me

You are cruel

I didn’t think you would find that funny. But I did

Any dream will do

Call me or I wont tell you

You dickhead, it's me. Call my mobile or you could just wake my mum up again

I get the picture

Pick it up baby

Please

I got out of bed and everything

Apologies for the aggression

I just had to jump out of bed naked to pick up the phone as I linked the events in my head. I was scarred I might meet my mum at the telephone-I try and avoid these situations you know

Wednesday, 20 April 2011

archive +7.9

I ate half a pineapple at lunch

There is one kid who keeps on being asked if they are a boy or a girl

She has a thick moustache with healthy regrowth

Thought as much

It’s better than thinking about nothing. Something everyone else in the world does

Strangest dream

I’m so angry, I just wrote you a five-page message but deleted it. I’m sorry if you’re feeling upset, I wish you were in London. He likes you, it's just complicated. His age, his lifestyle...Personally I believe you deserve more and much better, but I've been in your situation and it’s the hardest thing to forget. Things will change, but I don’t think that’s enough.

I've finished my novel

Stop it.

Sixty four thousand words and twenty pages. God, I’m over the moon.

I get that the whole time; eyes blinking and thinking, sinking and pinking

Thursday, 7 April 2011

archive +7.8

I have a horrible feeling I just intruded on my sister masturbating

Did he reply?

Think about football, that works for me

Yeah, and what

I just did a fart that was exactly like the smell of wheat crunchies. The purple pack

I’m easy like Sunday morning

I’m sorry. I was drunk and you know the conceited monster that I am. I just looked at myself sidelong in the mirror whilst in the shower and my arse is so big.

Two more of her. Bury me now

So bored of sex

Ratios

Nothing to display

We are having a middle class vodka and cocaine party. Come come come along

You are seriously missing out. We are making a den which isn’t as good as your birthday one, but it is more disco. You don’t even have to partake, we are drinking five alive. Think of the love you will receive on arrival.

Don’t be silly, you cannot resist. We will be here all night waiting hopefully for your imminent arrival. He will do a handstand if you come

Its fucking hilarious-get over it

Monday, 21 March 2011

archive +7.7

I’ve taken care of it.

Help

He isn’t a person, more a series of unfortunate sound bites

A general debate ensued after that message but all we've thrown up from it, like a bulimic, is trite. Weight is but a number and it depends on how you look which in your case is good, so let that girl get on with it. The dress finally came, I love it, I look like St Francis

God, I don’t understand, why do you do this to me?

What a relief. I do try and keep up with your inner monologue, but I struggle

It would never make me cry. I enjoyed that message

Well, so have you me, but you’ve also made me smile an awful lot and that’s what I chose to focus on. I was thinking of my fondest memory of you was lying under the London eye on a summers night and you probably don’t even remember it. How's that for uncomfortable

That made me cry

Somewhere new and somewhere old

White city dog race. Come on, you know I’m shit at this. I would say sit on a bench

Is this to entertain him? If it’s sunny all the time I would get bubble tea and cigarettes and lie in a park being nonchalant.

She felt she may as well succumb to her inevitable plumpness, so joined the kittens on the floor where they lapped from a bowl of cream. She did this every day, every mealtime, so that night by night she saw her thighs stretch, not as white as cream, no, but marbled with the delicate pink and blue of veins. Her stomach became distended and the folds in the flesh crunched beneath her as she rose or bent, but especially bent, and her body groaned. Soft and nacreous, her skin sent up fumes like incense exhaled at some slaughter, some sacrifice of the vanities.